Adios comfort zone, literally! Thoughts on moving…

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Lately I’ve been noticing more than ever the amazing abundance that California has to offer. Partly because I’ve been actively participating in an ongoing exercise to notice abundance all around me. I believe that seeing the world around me as a cup that’s “half full” helps me remember to be grateful for everything that I have. I also believe that by being aware and grateful, I put out an energy that has a positive effect on those around me and keeps the good vibes flowing.

If all of that sounds a little woo-woo then maybe we can all agree that having a positive attitude at the very least makes us feel good! And that really is the ultimate goal, right? To feel good and to enjoy life. So that’s what I’ve been doing a lot of lately.

This past February I left a cozy full-time job at an advertising agency to go freelance as a web developer. Since then, I’ve been making my own schedule, choosing my own projects and basically being my own boss – hell yea! Having a flexible schedule has afforded me more time to pursue other interests and passions like practicing and teaching yoga, developing vegan recipes and TRAVELING.

Which brings me back to California’s abundance. My husband and I have been playing with the idea of leaving Los Angeles for greener, less-expensive pastures. We’re not yet sure exactly where our search will take us, but we’re definitely eyeing Portland and Austin. I recently discovered how vegan-friendly Austin is!

While we’re still in cali, we’ve been taking full advantage of everything this amazing state has to offer. We trekked north to San Francisco, south to San Diego(my hometown) and a couple places in between – Mammoth and Los Olivos.

 

Found some vegan cookies at the local health food store! #veganlife #mammoth #familytrip #goodtimes

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Downward facing dog in Los Olivos #yoga #wine #nofilter #nature

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I’ve also been spoiled pretty much my entire life by living in Southern California. My friends joke that growing up in San Diego has made my acceptable temperature levels about 75-80 degrees, which is 100% true! Living in Los Angeles for the past 10 years has been so much fun! Going to shows, jamming in bands with friends, going to the beach, getting to work for a record label and even The Oscars, access to amazing vegan restaurants, and the list goes on and on.

If and when we do leave California, it will be a tough decision to make and we’ve already taken a step in that direction. We’re selling our house and are officially moving out this weekend. I’ve been trying to fully come to terms with what this means, even as my days are filled with packing, scheduling, arranging, planning and oh yea – working for my real job! It can be hard to anticipate change and fully prepare. Obviously, I’ve known for the past 4 weeks or so that we are not going to be living here much longer. But it doesn’t change the fact I know I will be feeling it hard when we actually close the door behind us for the last time. I’m already getting a tad bit emotional just typing that!

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There has been one recurring thought I’d had throughout the past few weeks, whenever my mind starts to race with fear-based thoughts like “holy shit, wtf are we doing?!” and “why am I upsetting my comfy lifestyle for the unknown?” and “is this going to be worth it?” The thought that I eventually come back to is “home is where the heart is.” And for me, that means as long as I’m with my family(husband and kitties primarily), I will be happy and I will be home!

Abundance doesn’t always mean that everything is perfect. In fact, it NEVER means that because “perfect” isn’t real! Abundance basically means having gratitude in what IS there and recognizing it. So this is me, noticing how lucky I am to even be in this position. Sure, I’m leaving my comfort zone, literally and physically leaving my house and physical shelter/safety. That will be gone. But what I’ll have in return is a realization that I am safe and I am home wherever I go because I know what’s really important.